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But the Thing that Undid Him

by Mel Henderson

was the college girl’s perfect brain, freed from its bony box, lying in unnatural rest on the shoulder of the highway, all slippery and pink and pristine and vulnerable as a startled fetus. He’d flipped on the flashers to pursue a silver blur around the unlit bend and now the teams were arriving so he covered her brain with an orange cone so it wouldn’t be kicked or crushed as they marked, measured, photographed. Only half of her body was there and she looked almost natural, asleep in the dark, as though her unseen half simply sank into the pavement, but he had to rub at his throat to keep it open and he had to rub blue ink on paper to keep from clenching his hands while the matter-of-fact men swept of glass and burnt-out flares and gathered the last cones and declared the site clean—but when they trundled off in their white trucks no one saw that her brain was left in the gravel and the girl could not call out to them, Wait, you forgot my brain, over there by the passing cars. But it was found before sunrise, first by insects, then by birds, and later by people, her family who came to the site to understand what had happened, but because there is no understanding insects or birds, the outraged phone call spun into a squall of promises from the chief that yes, the deputy will be held accountable, will be punished, will be suspended. And he was—suspended by a dutiful blue thread, hung from the half moon over the curve of an unlit highway where his nightmare looped from next time to next time to next time, and every time he switched off the damned flashers so she wouldn’t speed up but no matter how she swung or reached he could never catch her car before it unraveled around the bend.

Mel Luthy Henderson has taught writing as a graduate instructor at BYU since 2021 and will earn her MFA in creative nonfiction in 2016. Her master’s thesis is a collection of essays entitled Animal Mothers: On the Primitive, Fierce, Humanizing Practice of Nurture. Her current projects include authoring the memoir of an Iranian fugitive and immigrant, writing a children’s book specifically commissioned to feature in an independent film, and contributing to a non-profit blog for survivors of betrayal trauma. Mel lives in Provo with her husband and kids, plus four cats, and one very small, maladjusted dog.