I am here again.
The house where your grandparents live
is still there. Color and that first seen
brilliance all gone but an older sheen
still holds on. It was snowing, no one
was home and a yearning, resplendent
and part of a past I’ve never really known,
aching and urging you to enter the house. I could
still see you, soft and open on the floor.
You were sick that day and I put you in that
old tub, touching your arms and your stomach,
watching you move and smile. That night I
woke to see you next to me, then I slept again.
I didn’t go in the house this time. When I was
leaving I saw a young woman going through a
trash bin. I won’t see you here again. Cold
becomes desolation, and I wait
to be carried back to you.